Yesterday, we had a water softener installed.  A nice dude came and did the job and we chatted here and there, he did the job well, I paid him, and he left.  All the while basically saying a big fat “No” to the Holy Spirit screaming at me to direct the conversation towards God and tell him about Jesus.  Did I? No. I was cast back in my mind to the 7th grade, being petrified that the “cool kids” may actually find out that I go to church.

What really bothered me inside was this sort of nagging question: “Do I really believe this or not?  If I do, then why is my mouth closed up tight?”   If I believe in Christ as my Savior, as the plan that God has put forth as the Creator of the universe to reconcile everyone to Himself – then why didn’t I say anything?  How many hours and hours do I study, read, pray, meditate – for WHAT? to keep it to myself?!  That’s definitely not the idea…

So, needless to say, as I came to the Word this morning conviction immediately washed over me as I reflected on the events of the past day.  As I was busy repenting – the chrono read has us in Ps 95.

Today, if you q hear his voice,
r do not harden your hearts, as at s Meribah,
as on the day at t Massah in the wilderness,
9 when your fathers put me to the u test
and put me to the proof, though they had seen my v work.
10 w For forty years I loathed that generation
and said, “They are a people who go astray in their heart,
and they have not known x my ways.”

I then followed the link to Hebrews 3:7-11 where Paul uses this verse talking about the Jews who were returning to “safe” Judaism.  After repeating the passage above from Psalm 95 he elaborates:

12 Take care, brothers, lest there be in any of you an evil, unbelieving heart, leading you to fall away from e the living God. 13 But f exhort one another every day, as long as it is called “today,” that none of you may be hardened by g the deceitfulness of sin. 14 For we have come to share in Christ, h if indeed we hold our original confidence firm to the end.

Wow.  I picked right up on the things we need to do to protect us from being lead away:

  1. Take Care – we have to be CAREFUL and INTENTIONAL in all things to listen to the Spirit’s leading
  2. Exhort one another – the church body of Christ needs to be functional in the sense of spurring each other on to love and good works
  3. Flee from sin – all sin – it will harden your heart
  4. Hold on – to the end = FAITH

I will sum this up by going back to the beginning of the book “Knowing God” by Packer – definitely one of my “Deserted Island” books (If I were ever stranded on a deserted island, somehow having advanced notice to pack all the “must have” books…).

What is my ultimate aim and object in occupying my mind with these things? What do I intend to do with my knowledge about God, once I have it? For the fact that we have to face is this: if we pursue theological knowledge for it’s own sake it’s bound to go bad on us. It will make us proud and conceited…as Paul told the conceited Corinthians “Knowledge puffs up…the man who thinks he knows something does not yet know as he ought to know” (1 Cor 8:1-2).

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2 thoughts on “Going astray in the heart

  1. JERK! This is not how to write a blog post. You made me feel guilty… responsible… lacking. Jerk.

    How come you didn’t talk about how good and precious I am? I would like that.

    I don’t like being lacking; it makes me look bad… feel bad.

    BUT… I am.

    so… Thank you.

    For from him and through him and to him are all things. To him be glory forever. Amen.

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